Hello wonderful world of Deviant Art! As you may have noticed, I've slipped away from DA for a while. Life became extremely financially difficult and school became unmanageable. Honestly my self-esteem was at an all time low and DA with all of you (don't get me wrong, many of your works were incredibly inspiring) depressingly skilled art wasn't helping my mood. So I decided to take a step away and start to learn more about myself and what I wanted out of life. I discovered 2 very hard things:
1. That while I have a great passion for American Sign Language and the Deaf community, my self esteem and some of my skills aren't high enough to compete in the Interpreter program I'd chosen. And with that realization can a need for support and help from staff which I didn't receive. Or perhaps it just wasn't the right kind. Whether it was intentional or not doesn't matter at this point. What matters is that, while I'm not dropping the hope of one day becoming an interpreter, I am going to explore a different avenue that makes more sense at this point in my life.
2. While I was trying to let out some stress and reevaluate my life I began making time for two of my favorite hobbies. Both of which have always taken a backseat to what society would consider, more practical or 'career-safe' worthy options. One being writing (which despite my great A.D.D., Dyslexia, and spelling issues I find relaxing and enjoyable) and the other photography. After a few (in my opinion) decent snaps of the camera I posted a few on FB and showed some to my sister and other family members. All who seemed to marvel at them. The love of my life also began to note how much my photo skills seemed to take a unique perspective in their angles. Especially after I'd practically stolen his DSLR camera and began using that in place of my high end point and shoot. I brushed all of the compliments of, feeling much better than before. It was then that my sister, the real 'opportunity knocks' person in our family, encouraged me to start a photography business. At first I brushed it off. I've taken a grand total of two photography classes in my life and worked briefly as a school picture photographer. Sure I'd gotten lucky with some sunset shots but I was no where near the level all the wedding photographers I'd seen with Ricky during our many expo trips during our engagement. But then it occurred to me. Granted I need to know my place in the photography world, I wasn't near the 600-3,000 wedding photos or 100,000 contract jobs or even the 50-100 photo session levels. But I had a natural eye for it.
Out of that #2 realization that I'm sure a lot of people skipped you can take one thing: I've found a new way to give myself a voice: photography. I finally decided to give photography a go after all these years and stop just treating it like a hobby. I made the major decision to not go back to the Interpreter Training Program at school next fall and instead, begin some classes in photography (assuming my grant will still hold and I won't have to pay for the classes myself, in which case this'll be slow going XD).
In order to help with expenses (both for class and for general living) I've begun my own photography business via a FB page which I will share the link with you all shortly. It offers very inexpensive sessions for both humans and pets (I will even do snakes and spiders as long as they are handled by the owner otherwise I'll have to politely refuse as I couldn't take the best shots possible if I'm scared out of my mind) and I'll be selling canvas prints of any and all scenery that I post on there. I hope that you all will take a moment to look over and 'like' my page if you deem it to be fit!www.facebook.com/TwiestedFocus
If you do not, feel free to leave a reply on here as to why you didn't like it so I can improve on my skills and my presentation. Please do let me know, I promise I won't take offense to anything said. I want to be successful and if that means taking a few blows to my ego are in order, I'll take it.
Also on another positive note. Ricky and I have both found affordable housing and steady jobs. While we did have a small set back (I kind of had a car run into me as I rode my bike across a crosswalk and now my hours have been cut because I can't walk properly until my sprained foot is healed) we have both found decent paying jobs with which we've been slowly climbing out of debt with. So hopefully the only posts you'll be seeing from me are positive posts about recent photo shoots and announcements about the next anime conventions/events I'll be attending.
This is Riku Tsumi, signing out for a while.